Mostly Poetry and other musings
VICARIOUS LIFE
Tonight I am flying and I do not need wings
someone else does, though it’s mine, I feel
Experience’s as vague a concept as “things”
I might know it, but do I? for real?
it’s not my soliloquy and am not aware
observation is lost so I make it my own
your enmity is mine now, cynics beware
care less for the effect but in pain, you go down
Caught in the web of a make believe story
the sight of understanding, shattered and cracking
This life, i never intended needs a query
i know am not, but why do I feel like I am flying?
CLOSURE!
Why? The question we ask always. But, do we ever get the answer?
Maybe that’s why binging on a story became the weapon against the dark necromancer
The starts to things that are amazing, deceive
me with a suicide at the end that I never see coming
how did a passionate kiss in the morning became dead silent by the evening?
so short, so ephemeral and so amazing. the memories rush back to me
But were they real? More questions and still no resolution comes to me
People say, don’t be a pussy grow up and move the fuck on
But when a fragrance in the air brings flashes, the questions follow on
‘What the fuck did I do wrong? Why does this keep happening?’
I wanna scream and I do at a mirror which fuels my stomach in twisting.
I do not know, probably I will never
Yeah I maybe a pussy for needing some closure
Moving on is easy, it’s only an addiction away
little did I realize, addictions bring darkness with a sway
I don’t need to be closer again I just need some conclusion
Or maybe I can just be a tiny bee in a starry night, looking up in confusion
WHO IS MY BEST FRIEND?
I keep asking the question, At first
my head rolled through all of them
As thoughts did stumbled to a burst
Funny head said it’s none of them
Cruel heart put in front my lonely soul
Making me stare up, feeling the night’s sky
I behest then beseech to this mind so foul
It seemed as empty, in a cow could fly
A light i see and A life i feel
This little square and the stories it tells
Unfolding my sense inside a seal
The deeper i went, the brighter it swells
No hinder nor a pause
To this marathon of inflamed blocks
Funny you ask the cause
My best friend is this lightning box.